9th February 2011 Dear Friend

Its just passed Chinese new year~
had a wonderful time back at Ipoh with my family~
my uncle's family and my auntie's family

During this holiday i tried to called a few friends, wished them and even sms some~
made me remember things tat happened last year around the same time.
There is this friends tat i used to be very closed with~
she wasn't the smartest girl in class but she is smart in her own ways
she wasn't the prettiest girl in class but she is pretty in her own ways
she wasn't the brightest girl in class but she is bright in her own ways
she wasn't the loudest girl in class but she is loud at sometimes
and she carries a very dear fragrance around her wherever she go.
I got to know her when we were in form 1, and i DINT talk to her face to face until form 4
it was when i notice she had some illness, i started to pay more attention to her.
slowly slowly we got to know each other more.

It was during form5 i would hang out in her house after skul from time to time.
slowly i started to have feelings for her, not knowing how she thought of me.
She gave me a ring on my birthday and since then i've been wearing everyday.
Until last year 1st of January i took her out for count down, tat was when i confessed to her.
nevertheless she dint gave me an answer and i waited~
as days goes by i felt tat i was progressing and she did told me there was a love rival for me.
somehow on my side i kept thinking tat i wasn't good enuff yet so i made constant reminder to change my attitude my ways.
but i was wrong she dint like the new me..
she liked the old me and she avoided me at some point.
i was in despair not knowing how to fill in the blank in between us.
and while in my despair, she told me she coupled wif tat rival
i was in pieces broken and lost
but fortunately i was still working and some of my friends advice me and i took this positively
and was also due to my children that has taught me how to smile again.

Soon i when to national service leaving everything behind, my job, my children, my life and her.
during national service i constant found myself thinking of her and what had happened
but the other part of me had took myself to quit thinking of those leave everything behind
and juz focus on whats happening in national service, cause before i left she told me that my greatest weakness is that i think too much and after thinking i feared the possible results which i find is very true. the 3 months in national service flew passed i was back here. but i wasn't able to find a reason to text her though i still had some feelings for her.

As time went on about sometime last year November i suddenly found the valor to texted her and i had a yum cha session wif her~
after hearing what happened to her,
due to a change of events she broke up wif her present boy friend,
honestly speaking after i heard this i was a happy knowing tat mayb i can have another chance
but unfortunately she has completely sealed her heart and the brightness of her was slowly fading... i really wanted to help as to help her not to be so negative and think positive for change.
i've tried but somehow she gave me a feelings as though she has given up to pursuit happiness...

i really that this friend doesn't give up to pursuit happiness..
i really want to her happy i guess.
as for me nothing matters anymore, it doesn't has to be me to help her pursuit happiness
but i juz hope she don't stop and don't entertain negative thoughts as she is doing now...
all of this is just what i felt when i talked to her, i hope i'm wrong and i hope she can the way she used to be..

She hardly ever allowed me to take a photo of her so this is the best i have.

28th January 2011 IU a.k.a Lee Ji Eun

One The cutest and most talented korean singer i've seen so far~
she can dance and can sing~ and most of all she's cute~

IU debuted on September 24, 2008 with her first mini-album, Lost and Found, in which she was praised by various Korean artists and critics for her strong vocals portrayed in the title track, "Missing Child". However, the album was not commercially successful. It wasn't until her comeback that she succeeded on breaking into the mainstream. On April 16, 2009, IU launched her first full album, titled Growing Up, with the lead promotional number, "Boo." Within three weeks, "Boo" went up to the #1 contenders for SBS Inkigayo, and her name also went up twice on Take 7 together with other notable artists like SG Wannabe and Younha. The song also did well on KBS Music Bank K-Chart, on Mnet M!Countdown chart, and on various online music charts.

And her most recently album would be "real" which was released on december 9th 2010
and has 14,000+ (Still Charting) sales!

31th Decemeber 2010 The Closing of the year of begins

The Ending of my year of begins~
A list To wrap up wad happened this year~:

1. My 1st time working as kindergarten teacher
2. My 1st time going to national service(and oso my last time~)
3. My 1st time entering College
4. My 1st time college examination
5. My 1st time Doing homework
6. My1st time winning a gold medal for life-toll swimming
   
7. My 1st time wearing jeans
8. My 1st time burning lab equipments just the fuse though~
   
9. My 1st time Doing revision before exams
10. My 1st time building a robot
11. My 1st time Dying my hair
12. My 1st time Cutting my hair bald
13. My 1st time Playing water polo
14. My 1st time being Ernest..

It was a Fun 2010 and year of begins
And juz before coming to a close~
My long Lost brothers and Sisters was found on facebook~

I had always searched for them online and was really hoping tat one day i would be able to come in contact wif them, Even though i used to be the nerd who always got his ass kicked in class, but i still do have some good memories about my past~ It was then when i really knew about the meaning of friends. When i was in Ipoh a lot of unpleasant things happen but my best friend really did stood by my side, they never left me not once!

That's why i really wanted to meet them again if i can, I'm planning a trip back to Ipoh to meet them. And even though i still haven seen tat certain someone which i wan to see how tat someone would look like now and how much tat someone had change but I'm hoping i can find that certain someone in some of my lost brothers and sisters picture. I owe that certain someone a lot for being my strength when i 1st came to kl.

My brother Ng Wen Bin One of the best friends you'll only come across over a 100 hundred years. It has been 6 years since i lost contact wif them and finally i found them~ I was really happy that i could seriously jump over the moon, i had never been so happy ever in my whole life~ No word can express how happy i am now.

Now whats left is the beginning of 2011 and the year of Challenges
To start things off My finals begins on the 6th of January~
And that's the 1st boulder I've have to overcome.





31/12/2010 Case Closed

24th December 2010 Wishing Everyone a Blessed Christmas

Me ,Dinesh and Mile we're from the swimming club~ awesome swimmers they are and awesome water polo players too.

My nasional Service brothers Kenny And Jacky~ dun mind the pose its to show our brotherly love~ :D

Me,Daren And Kenny~ Daren the joker~ haha~ his a even bigger joker than me~ somehow my jokes dont really stand out when i'm wif them~ coz they're epic~

My college mates Alex and Chanchai~ We had been helping each other out since last sem~ awesome people to be with.

Edwin(dai lou), Me and chanchai~ we took this when we was about to finish our robotic arm~ Epic buddies~ haha~

A blessed Christmas to all my friends~

well its been awhile since i last updated my blog~
Alot had happened and i was abit lazy to find the time to update it~
anyhow i have the to mood to update it so here it is~

the above pictures are juz about wad happened during the previous months~
Since i joined the swimming club i've got dark really quickly almost darker than when i was in nasional service.

I recently juz had a gathering wif my nasional service brothers and sisters~ it was an awesome time out wif them. was hyper super hyper when i'm wif them, somehow i feel more at easy when i'm will them makes me feel like ya this is where is missed the most. And they are my motivation for me to push myself~ i really love them~ haha~ even though they dun really noe how much i appreciate them but hey~ my dad once told me:

What the right does, the left hand should not know~

so i dont mind~ anyway some things are best to be hidden and taken to the grave wif me~ :D



24.12.2010 case closed

7th December 2010 The Break up Club

I watch this movie yesterday night, its known as "the breakup club"
it has quite an interesting storyline~ consider a slice of life~
the actress oso leng lui~ so not bad bah~
This movie is quite realistic as it shows you the ups and downs of a relationship and how a third person can actually comes in and take away your partner.
Things like this do happen and its actually hard to point the finger at who is actually wrong though.
There is no good or evil... only thinking makes it so..
exactly hat shake spears said, i find it quite true.
overall its an awesome movie try and watch it if you have the time, it might teach you a thing or 2~

29th September 2010 The furthest end

How is it over there?
Surely it's a place where I don't know
A letter would be nice
Give me a word or two so
I'll know you are doing well

Opening the door and heading
Toward you but I cannot do anything
so I hope at least this song or prayer
reaches you deep inside of your heart


Not one cloud in the clear blue sky
Not one method to hide my tear is given
The day to end has come
Now I cannot say anything to you
Ordinary day yes it was
But then you colored my black and white life to red
It was such a small graceful love
yes it was a small grace full love so now
Goodbye

If I can belive that someday we can meet again
that will be my strength
we will spend the days like it was before
till then I will sing this song for you

If the door closes
We'd be apart forever I cannot bear
You will ever know my feelings
You will be from a dark cloud to the rain

Ordinary day yes it was
But then you colored my black and white life to red
It was such a small graceful love
yes it was a small grace full love so now

Sayonara

7th September 2010 Because you are here.

Because you suddenly said
"Its alright to cry"
I was somehow happy and smiled without a tear

Unfortunately I have hurt you with clumsy words
Nevertheless you never left me
But kept supporting me in this way even now

Surely...
the wishes and dreams I want to fulfill,
all the feelings I want to send out
that in which I keep believing, summons a miracle
and will be connected to the future
I want to watch over you, always, yes, always
Dear, my friend

Because you told me "you'll be alright"
at the time of our parting
The loneliness I felt disappeared beautifully with that single word

Opening a new door is something everyone is afraid of, but
when I remember how you've always encouraged me, I'm filled with strength

I won't surrender my honest feelings
All these honest words
If I can convey them with my words, the future will extend out
Because you are in my heart forever, yes, forever
Dear my friend

Even if I seem to stop or forget
I vow that I will always keep moving forward
The sky above is shining a light until the day I meet you

The wishes and dreams I want to fulfill,
all the feelings I want to send out
that in which I keep believing, summons a miracle
and will be connected to the future
I want to watch over you, always, yes, always
Dear, my friend